January 2010
15 posts
I hear youre running in a whole new scene.
So Pretty, So Smart Such a waste of a young heart. What a pity… what a sham. What’s the matter with you man? Don’t you see whats wrong? Cant you get it right? Out of mind, and out of sight. Call on all your girls. Dont forget the boys. Put a lid on all this noise…
Im, a satellite heart. Lost in the dark. I’ve spun out so far, You stop I start… but I’ll...
Are you positive? ABSOLUTELY SURE.
Its hard to say. I think too much. I’m incredibly nervous, happy, anxious, and pessimistic about tonight. In the mean time Im listening to my loves, Taking Back Sunday.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7Ce6mkhauFE&NR=1
My horoscope for this week
You shouldn’t bother yourself over trivial matters. Worrying about things that you can’t fix right now would just be a waste of your time. Keep your mind focused on the important people and situations that are going on in your life right now that you want to be happy with. The more you focus on what is going ‘right’ the happier you are going to be. Your ruling planet Mars will continue being in...
Stupid survey thing (Bail $545)
Instructions: Just read the ‘offense’ and if you’ve done it, you owe that fine. Keep going until you’ve read each ‘offense’ and added up your total fine. Title your bulletin ‘My Bail is $……..’ You don’t have to confess your answers, just the amount of your fine. 1) Smoked pot — $10 2) Ever got drunk at work, or...
And I was the one who was lifting you up
When you thought your life had had enough.
I just wanted you to tell me the truth. You know that Id do that for you.
I cant see nothing.
I’m feeling very vulnerable, alone, and uneasy tonight. I’m feeling nostalgic to 8/9 months ago when I was never alone, always distracted, surrounded by love and friends and smiles.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SAe3sCIakXo
Thats the song of my night tonight.
“Maria says shes dying through the door I hear her crying… . . (I know its only in my head)”
So many...
Parties.
So, while for the past year I have been living the life of the scene, promoting and attending parties, this is my first attempt at actually creating the party.
I knew that it wouldnt be easy. I realized it took work and a lot of effort and finger crossing, but I did not realize quite how much this was to handle. I have done nothing for the past few days but try to make this happen, and its...
Ideals.
I hate it when I’m not taken seriously, I hate it when I’m spoken down to, and I hate it when I feel stuck.
I wish I were stronger, older, surrounded by better people.
I wish everyone were just like you. Or just like me. Either would be ok.
A certain uniformity amongst everyone would make the world so much easier to understand and live in.
But thats communism, in a way, and is only...
I have come to realize that while nothing really matters and life is not only pointless but fleeting, there are things that are beautiful about it. List below.
1) Babies. I think that babies are amazing and miraculous. I love more than anything, hanging out with a happy baby.
2) Small children. I may have lied. I love hanging out with kids who dont realize that so much in the world is negative...
Transformation/Growing up
It’s amazing how much I’ve changed in the past year. Looking back I barely recognize myself. I feel like this is the year I grew up. I have no disillusions of thinking that I’m indeed, fully grown these days, but I am so much older than I was less than a year ago. I’m harder, stronger, faster, smarter. I have so much more confidence, and I have learned to be outgoing and...
I am a lion.
RAWR!
So after a stellar few days, I am at my grandmothers house, stressed about going to pick up my passport from the hospital tomorrow.
The hospital is not someplace I wish to revisit, especially so soon. I would much rather be with my best friend and the baby hanging out and giggling. The stress that even thinking about reapproaching that building makes me want to vomit violently. Its funny...